Already Going To Hell, Just Pumping That Gas

All I wanna do is... and take your money. Because I wish I felt this badass right now.

Paper Planes - M.I.A.

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Your Mind Is Not Your Own

Tonight was one of those evenings that I really hated eating alone. I had a craving for burgers, and being low on cash, I knew it would actually be cheaper to go buy the ingredients and make my own burgers than go out and buy one from Five Guys or somewhere (I do love the Five Guys, though...). I also knew instinctually that I would have way more food than me, lonely little me, would need. And, I just wished for company.

I still made the burgers (bbq sauce and red onions in the mix, muenster cheese on top, grilled asparagus instead of fries), and mine was damn tasty. I froze the three I didn't cook. But, I still really hated eating by myself. It would have been nice to have someone to share the good stuff.

Life of a single girl. Lonely cheeseburgers and red wine. But, I'm not settling. I'll wait for what I want.

Lonely Is The Night - Billy Squier

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Countdown: 64 Days

Looking at my bank statement online the other day, I noticed the charge to Aer Lingus had been posted. The ticket is on its way. Countdown...64 days.

64 days until I hit the Emerald Isle. 64 days to find myself in something totally NEW. It's exciting. And scary. And very, very needed.

The Broad Majestic Shannon - The Pogues

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Black and Gold Never Quit

After last night's nailbiter, double overtime playoff win, where the Bruins went up 3-1 in their series against the Sabres, I am positively COMPELLED to post this song!

Go, go Black and Gold!!!!

Time to Go - Dropkick Murphys

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Down With the Sweet Adelines

Although concerts are not necessarily in the budget right now, I'm truly looking forward to this one, as it's been probably 15 years since I've seen Elvis. Although this is not one of his newer songs (which I like very much, actually; he's been infected with the T-Bone Burnett virus, and it works well with his maturing voice), it speaks to me, and I hope to hear him play it tonight.

He sang this one, a capella, before one episode of his talk show, season one. So, hearing this tonight is not out of the realm of possibility.

The Other End (Of The Telescope) - Elvis Costello

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Everywhere You Go, You Always Take the Weather With You

I disabled my OK Cupid account the other day, and I figured out why, just now.

I was sitting at my desk in my office, procrastinating (a little bored with paperwork and meetings, and more than a little annoyed and anxious), and while reading the headlines from my news reader, I opened a new tab and almost robotically went to the OKC tab in my saved sites list.

Stop.
Right.
There.

I'm looking for guys when I'm bored. Restless. Unsettled. And, what I tend to find, or attract to myself when I'm bored, restless, and unsettled are these great on paper, emotionally unavailable douchebags who start off with a bang and can't commit.

This needs to stop. I need to get un-bored with my down time. Stay focused at work, read and listen to music again. START BLOGGING REGULARLY. I was never bored at night when I was blogging on a daily basis.

I know what I'm "pining over" so to speak, and that creates the restlessness and the distraction, and the need to seek out attention from males.

I know how to stop this,too. It's the same instinct as eating an entire bag of chips in one sitting because you had nothing better to do. So, as Weight Watchers would say, I have to fill the hole in a more productive way.

Think positive, act positive, and positive things will come to you.

An Empty Space To Fill In

Blue, songs are like tattoos,
You know I've been to sea before,
Crown and anchor me,
Or let me sail away,
Hey Blue, there is a song for you...

Ink on a pin,
Underneath the skin,
An empty space to fill in,
Well there are so many sinking now,
You've got to keep thinking,
You can make it through these waves,
Acid, booze, and ass,
Needles, guns, and grass,
Lots of laughs, lots of laughs,
Everybody's saying that hell's the hippest way to go,
Well I don't think so,
But I'm gonna take a look around it though,
Blue, I love you...

Blue, here is a shell for you,
Inside you'll hear a sigh,
A foggy lullaby,
There is your song from me...

Blue - Joni Mitchell

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Girls' Night Out

9 of 11 Fousins, originally uploaded by crau1971.

The nine women you see in this picture have known each other all of their lives, literally. I am the oldest of this bunch; these are (most of) the children of my parents' best friends, the Carchedis and the Costellos. We all spent a tremendous amount of time together when we were young. I remember the Carchedis coming over during the Blizzard of '78 to cook, as we had a gas stove, and they didn't. The Costellos always rented a house in Poponesset, down on Cape Cod, and after time, we rented there, too. Birthdays, christenings, weddings, funerals, graduations, and a slew of other life events, both big and small, have been shared by these three families.

As we all grew older, and further away in distance, we saw each other less and less. So finally, we all decided to pick a night that we would hold ourselves to keeping, and get together, for no other reason than we missed each other. So, Saturday night, 9 of the 11 made it out to Lewis' in Norwood, then Napper Tandy's, and laughed for hours and hours about absolutely nothing important, and everything wonderful all at once. We called it Fousins' Night Out (fousins = fake cousins), and it was marvelous.

So thank you, to my sisters, Colleen and Cat, Erin and Kate Costello, and Kristen, Aimee, Danielle, and Bethany Carchedi (they have married names, too), for an amazing evening. You are all my sisters of the heart, if not of actual family.

In the Pines Where The Sun Don't Ever Shine

Sixteen years ago today... he was never meant to be a superstar, but it's hard for us to forget the impact Kurt and Nirvana made on modern music. This song, I think, sums up the whole world of pain to which he ultimately succumbed.

Happy Easter

Jesus Was an Only Son - Bruce Springsteen

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If You Strip Away The Myth From The Man...

..you will see where we all soon will be...

Song for today. Well, song number one for today. An enduring, slightly odd family tradition, watching this movie. Maybe tomorrow, while I make brownies for a work wedding shower on Tuesday.

Later, it will be live Drive-by Truckers at the House of Blues, but right now, it's a little Andrew Lloyd Webber.

Heaven On Their Minds - Jesus Christ Superstar

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