I Didn't Know That We Could Break A Silver Lining

This song sums up perfectly the arc of one of the most significant relationships of my life, one that continues today, in an altered, but no less important form. Too bad it was released probably 10 years after the "relationship" (if it ever was that) ended.

What remains these days is a deep, abiding intense friendship, which comes and goes in waves. Six months, a year sometimes, would pass without a word, then a flurry of communication. The last year has been pretty consistent via email. This is one of many songs, including yesterday, that I use to sort out who we are to each other in my head. His contribution to the soundtrack is its own complete album, I think.

The impossibility of it all kept us near to each other in the beginning, most likely. When years, a decade had passed, and we were still in each other's lives, still connected, still important, that's when it solidified in my head that it was more than just a fling. So many details, so many stories. So much help given when I never expected it. The voice on the phone telling me, "forget about Christmas, you just need to GET OUT. Stop kidding yourself." It's a book, for certain, but for now, it's this song.

And i knew then it would be a life long thing, but i didn't know that we could break a silver lining...

A Sorta Fairytale - Tori Amos


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